I Want to Be In a Healthy Loving Relationship

My first only last for 3 months but it didn't last long. Let's just say we both decided it was best to break up. That was almost 8 years ago. Is that weird? I mean I want another relationship but I'm not mature enough for a committed relationship and feel too childish inside sometimes. I know it sounds weird but that's how I honestly feel. By the way that wasn't the reason we broke up. I'm almost 30 and I don't wanna feel pressured to get into a relationship and the "time is ticking". I don't care, I date again when I'm ready.
Hope this isn't confusing y'all.