I Like Being Alone But Hate Being Lonely

Welcome to my life! I love being alone and by myself but I absolutely HATE the feeling of loneliness. It's a feeling like no other - a feeling of being unwanted and outcast. I'am DEFINITELY an introvert as I have no social motivation nor do I make any attempts to meet friends. Why? Because I fear rejection.

Whenever I try and talk to someone new, I feel like I'm annoying them so I just don't communicate at all. I try to make friends online but nobody wants to talk to me after a day of conversation!

So what's the point in me trying to make friends if nobody will give me a chance? Exactly. There is no point. Do I want to make friends? Absolutely!! But if nobody will talk to me then I'll just stay alone. I hate it but I've gotten used to this over the years so I'm sure I'll manage.