I Am Scared of Relationships
I wish I was heartless so I wouldn't have to feel like I can't ever be enough for you. I wish I didn't care about how you feel so I wouldn't have to hurt with you. I love you, but I don't want to hurt you. I don't want to be my father, but every time I look in the mirror I see him. I'm either in pain, causing pain, or watching others around me writhe in pain. I wish I could say I'm ok but I'm not, and I'm not sure if I'll ever be. You deserve better. I'm sorry.