I know so little.. but I do know I am grateful.
Not really understanding any of it at the moment. I don't have much to compare it to.. compare your beauty to. I am really not sure where they came from or why they are now here. I don't know how I fit into any of this, or into their world. But I guess I don't need to understand it. Any more than I need to understand how a flower works.. how it blooms.. how it creates such a beautiful fragrance.. how it comes from the cold dark earth and explodes with every color imaginable into the sky by the millions, each and every spring.
Maybe I don't need to understand any of it to enjoy the beauty of it.. or need to know more than that.. To enjoy the opportunity and the ability to experience such blessings. Maybe I don't need to do anything. Maybe all they need from me is just to be gentle and honest and kind and be the clearest possible reflection for them. Maybe it is enough for them to be there for me in a time of need, maybe that's all that is necessary. I have no answers and that's ok.. I don't need to always know the reason for everything.
I just know there is something that won't let me let them go, won't let me drift away, won't let me dissappear like usual. For They deserve better. They've earned so much more than something like that from me. So I'm staying. I won't be leaving until they say goodbye.. but I won't say goodbye before that.. not out of fear of disappointing.. or out of not understanding my place in their life.. or even because I don't think I deserve it somehow.
Because the blessing is that they chose to be kind to me. They chose to care about me. They chose to want to be there.. they made that decision.. I simply need accept their caring and to listen.. and I think this is one of the life lesson they can teach me.
That's what I choose to believe.
Maybe I don't need to understand any of it to enjoy the beauty of it.. or need to know more than that.. To enjoy the opportunity and the ability to experience such blessings. Maybe I don't need to do anything. Maybe all they need from me is just to be gentle and honest and kind and be the clearest possible reflection for them. Maybe it is enough for them to be there for me in a time of need, maybe that's all that is necessary. I have no answers and that's ok.. I don't need to always know the reason for everything.
I just know there is something that won't let me let them go, won't let me drift away, won't let me dissappear like usual. For They deserve better. They've earned so much more than something like that from me. So I'm staying. I won't be leaving until they say goodbye.. but I won't say goodbye before that.. not out of fear of disappointing.. or out of not understanding my place in their life.. or even because I don't think I deserve it somehow.
Because the blessing is that they chose to be kind to me. They chose to care about me. They chose to want to be there.. they made that decision.. I simply need accept their caring and to listen.. and I think this is one of the life lesson they can teach me.
That's what I choose to believe.
