I Have Been Bullied

I've been bullied almost all of my life. Everyone I know thinks I'm weird, or crazy. I've only had a few friends in my entire life, and if they were, they were weirdos like me who play video games and mess around with computers all day. I always used to dread going to school and felt like crying then and there. They even went past insults sometimes, and it went physical. This led to me having anger issues. I sometimes hurt others without even realizing it. I would have meltdowns where I am extremely angry, but then I become very sad after. I always felt sorry and regretful if I hurt anyone. All I have ever wanted in life was to be friends with others, but nope. I was the black sheep, and they hated me for that. It hurts being bullied, and can destroy one's spirit.