I Have Random Thoughts

I have been having thoughts about my early years in particular my early teenage years, i must say that it was not a very happy time, my father really hated me he used to try and belittle me for example, we used to get quite a lot of visitors and at the tea table he would take me down and embarrass me in front off the guests.
I also remember one occassion when we had a row and he flung a cup at me and told me to go to Hell and he said he was going to kill me, on that occassion i managed to get out of the house untill my mother managed to get him to calm down.
Another occassion when i was a bit younger i was out playing at the back door when a friend of my mother's came round, but my mother was out and my dad was in his bed, he was on the nightshift, the friend of my mother said it was not important and left, my father came down and gave me the hiding of my life.
I ended up with a stutter for many years but thankfully i have been able to overcome that, only in very few occassions i stutter.