I Need Rest
Sometimes I wish I could just erase all of my memories. I spend so much time thinking about what was that I'm unable to see a future. If I could just start as a blank slate again and have no choice but to move forward.
I thought about her today. It was the first time in a long time that I actually sat down and thought about her. What could have been. Who I would be right now if she were just here.
Every time I think about the past, I get lost in my own head. Listening to the voice echoing about what a failure I was and how much of a failure I still am. When I snap out of it, I've done bad things.
I won't change.
I won't find peace.
I won't find love.
I won't live.
I need to leave.
I thought about her today. It was the first time in a long time that I actually sat down and thought about her. What could have been. Who I would be right now if she were just here.
Every time I think about the past, I get lost in my own head. Listening to the voice echoing about what a failure I was and how much of a failure I still am. When I snap out of it, I've done bad things.
I won't change.
I won't find peace.
I won't find love.
I won't live.
I need to leave.
36-40, M
