The pendulum way [I Have Thoughts]

The basic set up is isolation, being self sufficient during this time, like being a happy kid with his toys. Then you feel the need for a break from that, so you go into a space inhabited by other people. You gaze in wonder at how they behave and sound, in ripples, information washes over you, like not just verbally based information, maybe it's the pictorial essence in motion. But anyways for me then it is a going back and forth between these 2. Sometimes i linger on either one, and get spiritually ill, but that too also toughens ya up.