I Am Fighting Suicidle Thoughts

You say that it wouldn't be a great loss, but it would be a loss nonetheless. Try to put your energy into doing something that you love, and hopefully those thoughts will become less intrusive. Of course talking to a professional would be the best thing to do, if you're not already. Sorry you have to go through this, and hopefully some luck will soon be on your side.

I'm fighting all the same feelings that you are try to hang in there we both deserve to live we gotta try to not give up

I understand how you feel staring down barrel of my dads 32 pistol looks more inviting by the day

Get professional help please. Do it. Now. Grab the phonebook.

Hang in there. Things will get better

Know how you feel