I Am a Christian and I Love Jesus

I am losing my religion. I am a back slider, and suffering from apostasy. There is a wedge between me and God. Because the bible says that false prophets would go out into the world and deceive many and the love of many would grow cold, that's exactly what they did to me I don't always like the word. I have lost trust in God, I don't want to tithe, and I rather go out to the bar with friends I haven't been to church in a year. And I don't know what to do with myself. I want to reach out to Him to change my mind.