I Was A Teenage Drug Addict
I was 16 the first time I tried drugs and I could have said no and walked away. I didn’t. I could have said no the second and third time but I didn’t. I could even have said no the fourth and fifth time but I didn’t.
After that saying yes or no wasn’t really the issue anymore. Phrases like I want and I need were more accurate and I may have thought I was in control but I wasn’t. But the time it registered that I was on that slippery slope it was too late. I was already spiraling out of control.
I’d like to say it all started innocently enough. But was it really so innocent, after all I knew what I was doing, knew what I was taking. Maybe like so many others I had conned myself into believing I wasn’t going to get addicted. But that was a con and feeding my addiction would be pretty much all I cared about for the next seven years.
After that saying yes or no wasn’t really the issue anymore. Phrases like I want and I need were more accurate and I may have thought I was in control but I wasn’t. But the time it registered that I was on that slippery slope it was too late. I was already spiraling out of control.
I’d like to say it all started innocently enough. But was it really so innocent, after all I knew what I was doing, knew what I was taking. Maybe like so many others I had conned myself into believing I wasn’t going to get addicted. But that was a con and feeding my addiction would be pretty much all I cared about for the next seven years.