I Am In Recovery From Self Harm
Now is the time. The time for me to arise from the ashes of past negativity from my system, gather it all up in a ball, and spit it back to hell where that toxic shit came from. I let fear push me around, but no longer. Picture a tile floor with one crookedly set tile. Usually if the first one is not where it has been strategically and painstakingly precisely mean to be and stay, the rest of the tiles cannot make a smooth, beautiful pattern for the best result. An impressive mosaic disco ball of life collected all together, because that's the way I see it, and that's what I expect to make happen. So no one else's opinion of what they want, like, dislike, or no reaction at all won't concern me, since I am doing this by myself, and only for myself. I am creating a life that I can describe the best way I can learn how. Creating a life is misleading in the wrong context and the half ass listener.
I am life. I am living life. I have been obsessively suffering as as side effect of letting fear control me. Suffering in silence, misunderstanding that I was doing what I was trying not to do. And I caught myself doing it.
A therapist told me long ago that when I get a feeling, a trigger that will make me react physically in a knee jerk reaction, involuntary reflex that I would shrug off was signs of my body telling me what it needed.
The little engine that could finally made it to the top of the hill. The task was so simple, the hill was right there, but I had to be curious and research every other hill, fell down one, then got lost on my way home. xoxo
I am life. I am living life. I have been obsessively suffering as as side effect of letting fear control me. Suffering in silence, misunderstanding that I was doing what I was trying not to do. And I caught myself doing it.
A therapist told me long ago that when I get a feeling, a trigger that will make me react physically in a knee jerk reaction, involuntary reflex that I would shrug off was signs of my body telling me what it needed.
The little engine that could finally made it to the top of the hill. The task was so simple, the hill was right there, but I had to be curious and research every other hill, fell down one, then got lost on my way home. xoxo