I Don't Want to Die But I Don't Want to LiveI've been passively awaiting for my death for years now. I have high blood pressure, am morbidly obese, and an alcoholic. Surely I think to myself, if I just hold on for a little while longer, I'll keal over dead without having to go the effort of...See More »
I Don't Want to Die But I Don't Want to LiveI fantasise about being murdered as I feel that bad inside and that bad about my life. I’m too scared to end my life myself as I was put in a mental health unit when the authorities found out I tried it. Next time I could end up sectioned. I don’t...See More »
I Don't Want to Die But I Don't Want to LiveThe river of time has carried me out of the mountains. Long ago rushing from an icy mountain spring of youth, through thrilling falls of childhood, crashing foam of youth and Past the turbulent waters of my prime. Now i enter the slow, aimless...See More »
I Don't Want to Die But I Don't Want to LiveIt gets worse and worse. No one will stay by me and I know why. I'm crazy. I feel sick 24/7. Sad. Ugly. Stupid. Unlovable. I live for my son but I'm slacking. For him, for work, for myself. I wish the pain would end.
I Don't Want to Die But I Don't Want to LiveI don't like my wife anymore but I still love her. She is a reflection of myself maybe that's why I hate her so much
I Don't Want to Die But I Don't Want to LiveI don't want to feel the pain anymore. But, I also don't want to pass the pain to anyone else.
I Don't Want to Die But I Don't Want to LiveI am really struggling. I am miserable in my marriage. I am miserable in my profession. I have not been suicidal in a couple of years, not since i started taking lithium regularly. I hate my life so much. I fucking hate my job - being a...See More »
I Don't Want to Die But I Don't Want to LiveBlah........ my whole life recently has being tearing itself apart..i've lost so much, both in myself and in my friends who i just end up hurting..i'm a useless burden to everyone and i dont deserve to be alive. i take no...See More »
I Don't Want to Die But I Don't Want to LiveWhat was once a morning to look forward to is a morning of pain ...im in a dark world .. There is no relief... No one hears My cries ... If i left this world ... Who would care ? Im stressed and suffering body aches and i merely just want to die....See More »
I Don't Want to Die But I Don't Want to LiveOn somedays I just want to kill myself because this depression and pain kust won't leave