If I could be honest, yeah. I don't like to talk about it, though. Especially in an online forum like this where people will judge you, lol. I'm just hoping right now that 2020 will be a much better year for me than these last 3.
This site is surprisingly supportive. People with nasty things to say are either trolls or avoid this sort of thread. I'm hoping 2020 will be better for everyone. Seems like it's been a rough few years for most. Best of luck to you.