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I Was Cheated On

I fell in love with this man. He was good to me and treated me like a true princess. Never lied to me and he loved me deeply. I know it, I believe him. I have a gift of knowing who lies. So I know it he loved me, and still does.
A while back he started withdrawing and I knew something was wrong. Last week he broke up with me saying that it will never work out between us though I knew he was hiding something.
Because I was hurting I was posting things on facebook and I wasn't taking care of myself, wasn't eating.
He contacted me today, saying he doesn't deserve all the hurt and every time he knows I am hurt he gets angry and he hates himself. then he admitted that once he got drunk and cheated on me that's why he broke up with me because of the guilt. That's why he couldn't look me in the eye. He said he doesn't deserve my love and he doesn't deserve my tears and he made me promise him to take care of myself and eat. He made me promise him to be happy that would make him happy.
For the whole week, I was asking myself why he broke my heart. And I was hurting, I thought he stopped loving me, I thought he played me. But now that I know the truth, I wasn't angry. I felt lighter. My heart felt lighter.
My reaction is confusing me. I forgive him from my heart. I truly do. I don't know why I am reacting this way.
Does it make me cheap and unworthy and humiliating myself if I forgive him and even want to fix things between us?
I don't know, another girl might hate him, I tried to hate him, but I couldn't hate him, I couldn't find any ounce of hate or anger in me. what's wrong with me?
It sounds like he honestly realized he made a bad mistake and is truly repentant of that. It is really a good thing that you don't hate him. Hate is never the right response and always hurts the person who carries it. There is nothing wrong with you. He broke your trust, but does seem to still care for you and want to mend his ways. Trust will take a good amount of time to be rebuilt but I think that you are neither cheap or unworthy to forgive him. It takes a stronger person to forgive.
Livingwell · 61-69, M
I don't think anything is wrong with you. Yes, he broke your trust. But he came clean about it. Everyone makes mistakes. You can judge his sincerity alone. If you both feel like you can move forward, figure out how to prevent the issue from happening again, and rekindle the love, then by all means do it. Only you will know if it is possible. Good luck!
Livingwell · 61-69, M
Nothing is wrong with you. I think you have a good head and heart capable of seeing the bigger picture. He made a big mistake. And it should not be taken lightly. But if you and he both feel you can make amends, talk it out, move past this, and be happy then why not try? I know many will not agree but you seem to really know him and his heart. And he did treat you well. So it is worth the chance. If it happened a second time then I think you know the answer to that. Good luck!
melmouthfulls · 51-55, F

 
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