Been here before. By the judging, your parents care for you and you them - a mutual love that not all families are gifted with.

I have no idea what ails you, why you feel this way so I cannot help you any more (unless you want to talk about it in PM) than this, if at all.

If your familiar love works as I think, then perfection - while ideal - is not something you should seek to give them. If I were a parent; I wouldn't care what your grades are or how you looked. Don't try so hard that life becomes a torture instead of a joy because the greatest gift you can give your parents - and yourself - is not the perfect grades nor the perfect body.. but rather a genuine; ear to ear; from heart smile.

I'll admit, I've yet to fully commit to taking in what I've said above for myself, but... I do try. :)

Big hugs for u

Ow...I'm so sorry you have to go through that... *hugs you* 🤗 I'm here for you if you want to talk to someone