I Feel Guilty

I feel guilty of things like listening to those I should never have listened to, and put up with those I never should've had to.

I should already be in the military and even the police force right now, and instead, I am living with the guilt of what is not my fault, let alone my doing. My dad, being the embodiment of it all, should really be blaming himself and admitting it was his fault and all of it, and instead he proclaims his innocence and makes me out to be the bad guy and lied about me of something I didn't do and swear it was true, which is dishonorable. It's like lying on a government form and swearing it was true. I even know it was a mistake being his son, and him being my father.

Now, I'm planning the betterment ahead for my future generations, all the stuff I said before and so on so on I mentioned in my previous stories. It will happen.