I Have Voices In My Head

the voices of self hatred/depression and insecurity are pushing down on me. theyre spinning like a washing machine filled with taunts about how i blame myself for this change. they know its hard to find a distraction when im missing him so its like theyre crushing my mind in itself. im fighting like hell becuz i need to for him and i believe in our love but its just a infested disease i cant turn off. theyre just my terminal illness