I Am Getting a Divorce
Well I figured that I would try this out since I haven't been able to get things off my chest and getting outside input could probably help a bit.
My wife of five years and high school sweetheart has left me a bit over a year ago right after my birthday and just before our anniversary... We were together since 2001 and we're friends since the 90s. A match made in heaven it seemed.
I was happy but she was not apparently. She grew more distant and I was worried that she was seeing someone on the side which would be easy with my work schedule.
It didn't help that one week after she left a good friend of mine was killed in a car wreck. Not even a week after the funeral another friend was killed when she lost control of her motorcycle. So after her funeral I didn't really know what to do with all the pain and loss.
I missed an opportunity to get her back when she said that she was having second thoughts. Not thinking I lashed out from hurt and frustration ruining that.
As unhealthy as it is I kind of shoved everything into a dark corner of my mind just existed. Everything I enjoyed doesn't fulfill me anymore. I picked up some new hobbies and have turned into a gym rat and am in the best shape I've been in since college but it still seems empty and pointless.
Now everything in the split has been cordial and luckily we never had children. But after paying off mutual debt we are fixing to get the divorce finalized the split has come crawling out of the dark corner of the mind with a vengeance.
I live in a place where the best advice you get is pray on it or tine heals all wounds. Not much for talking about the feels around here.
I've gone on a few dates and even though I have liked a couple of the ladies I haven't been able to commit to much as I don't feel any sort of spark like I did with the ex. And as crazy as it sounds even to me it feels like I'm not being faithful when talking to women even though we've been separated for so long.
The logical side of my head says that it's because we were together for so long and will get better but the illogical side still kicks my heart in the dirt.
It doesn't help that she has moved on completely.
And I'm just here kicking myself for not handling the whole thing better.
It did actually feel pretty good just putting it down.
Thanks,
My wife of five years and high school sweetheart has left me a bit over a year ago right after my birthday and just before our anniversary... We were together since 2001 and we're friends since the 90s. A match made in heaven it seemed.
I was happy but she was not apparently. She grew more distant and I was worried that she was seeing someone on the side which would be easy with my work schedule.
It didn't help that one week after she left a good friend of mine was killed in a car wreck. Not even a week after the funeral another friend was killed when she lost control of her motorcycle. So after her funeral I didn't really know what to do with all the pain and loss.
I missed an opportunity to get her back when she said that she was having second thoughts. Not thinking I lashed out from hurt and frustration ruining that.
As unhealthy as it is I kind of shoved everything into a dark corner of my mind just existed. Everything I enjoyed doesn't fulfill me anymore. I picked up some new hobbies and have turned into a gym rat and am in the best shape I've been in since college but it still seems empty and pointless.
Now everything in the split has been cordial and luckily we never had children. But after paying off mutual debt we are fixing to get the divorce finalized the split has come crawling out of the dark corner of the mind with a vengeance.
I live in a place where the best advice you get is pray on it or tine heals all wounds. Not much for talking about the feels around here.
I've gone on a few dates and even though I have liked a couple of the ladies I haven't been able to commit to much as I don't feel any sort of spark like I did with the ex. And as crazy as it sounds even to me it feels like I'm not being faithful when talking to women even though we've been separated for so long.
The logical side of my head says that it's because we were together for so long and will get better but the illogical side still kicks my heart in the dirt.
It doesn't help that she has moved on completely.
And I'm just here kicking myself for not handling the whole thing better.
It did actually feel pretty good just putting it down.
Thanks,
