I Am Upset With Certain Things

Don't misunderstand that usually isn't a compliment @Pianist1234

@Pianist1234 seeing as you said you're a bad person lol... It could be as pathological as you lure the girls in so you can re-buff them. You get an ego boost and they feel shitty. This is all fine for Ayen as long as she ignores it or is unaware. If she doesn't then she's triangulated psychologically and lives in a state of anxiety or sees it as an ego boost and also enjoys it.
My ex used to use me as an excuse to break women's hearts I found out after years. I found that repugnant. I told him do what he likes with them, I don't care. That made it worse because then he was in a "kick me" situation where he could also play victim. "I love her but she doesn't love me" It was all very boring. He has another patsy now.

You'll have to excuse me. I'm re-reading games people play. I read it when I was about 10. My son wants to be a psychologist so I told him it was worth reading. He left it on the side and seeing as I haven't looked at it for a couple of decades I thought I'd Re-read it.