I Have Been In An Abusive Relationship

He wasn't my boyfriend or anything. We were really close friends, almost brothers, and we were also friends with benefits. A lot of the times I LOVED hanging out with him. But he was an extremely dominant person with a superiority complex. Which would have been perfectly fine if he didn't use certain methods to take control over me.

I was hit constantly. I've been punched in the face and kicked. When we tossed the football he'd intentionally try to hit me hard with it. He ran into me once and the way I landed caused me to get a bloody nose. He f*cked me a few times even though I was uncomfortable with doing so, and I tried saying "maybe we should stop" but he never did, but then again I never really said "no" and just let it happen.

I miss the good memories between the two of us. I love his mom and his two sisters to death. But we can never have what we once had because I don't want to be treated like complete shit by him again.