I Torture Myself With Sad Songs

Cutting Crew - (I just) Died in your arms tonight

This song is torture for me. I yearn so badly to feel the passion and exhilaration of being with someone you cherish dearly during the most intimate and vulnerable of times. I don't get to feel that way anymore, and I just feel hollow and broken as a result. Each time I listen to it, I recall those tender moments spent together so vividly. I can feel the heat of our bodies, the sweat gathering and dripping from me onto you, and the burning intensity as our eyes lock.
Then the cruel tragedy of reality bludgeons me back into the cold realization that it will never happen again, and that it is folly to think otherwise. Even though I can't experience that anymore, I still torture myself by listening to songs that bring those nearly forgotten memories back. Though it may be brief and followed by self-loathing; I still desire the slight glimpses into paradise.