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I Need to Rant

The pain has invited my old friend depression and that shithead has made itself right at home. Now I can鈥檛 stop crying. My stupid face is all red and puffy and I need to get it together. I鈥檓 hiding out in a conference room right now with a giant wet wad of toilet paper I grabbed from the ladies room. It鈥檚 sort of ridiculous enough to be cheered up by the sight of it.
HikingMan51-55, M
Winter's Rose

by: Rob Paquin


Beneath the winter's snows, buried there are things so deep below,
Like a love that's lost it's soul, lies a row of summer's rose.
Waiting just to be exposed.

So perfectly deranged. Like a soul that's now estranged.
Lie those roses, sleeping there unchanged. Their beauty much the same.
A flame of life to rearrange.

And yet that rose, it just can't see. That their beauty is just asleep.
Bound dormant, until released, by the summer's warming heat.
It's such a temporary freeze.

Inside the rose's heart, there lies the hope of a fresher start.
Like a piece of abstract art, provoking colors splashed across the chart
Thoughts from inside, wisdom imparts.

So the rose..., she must believe, that the summer comes for she.
With it's sun she'll be set free. A bloom that all can see.
Of the highest level of degree.

And, from inside out..., she is reborn. Love's light, inside...; Adorned.
The past, now gone, and scorned,. No longer to be mourned.
With a heart that's been forewarned.

So much stronger the rose now grows. Sprouting forth from beneath the snows.
To greet the life that is bestowed. With a soul now predisposed,
To shine and glow.
Beauty..; Unopposed.

~The Snowdog~
Fallflower46-50, F
@HikingMan wish I had more time right now. This is gorgeous. I need to read it 10 more times though.
HikingMan51-55, M
Well, it should be there for as long as you need it.

I'm onmy way back to work.
Be Well
Live Happy
Die Trying,
Rob
Bubbletea51-55, F
ALthough I don't know if the depression you are facing now is due to a love interest, I was there a few weeks ago and it is hard I know. Master all your strength and tell yourself you don't need this, and your head is playing you. You can control this and shake it off and emerge above it, tomorrow is another beautiful day! Hugs.. hang in there.
Bubbletea51-55, F
Do U mean someone inflicting physical pain on you?
Fallflower46-50, F
@Bubbletea no just my body being in inexplicable pain all the time for many months. Some kind of joint inflammation/muscle spasm thing. Your questions do make me think... it could be worse!!
Bubbletea51-55, F
Hmmmm.... have u tried a naturopath? Cld be something u are eating and unaware that u are allergic to and it doesn't show up on a regular skin prick test.
SW-User
I no longer get it together...I sleep, cry, write, do what I need to without guilt with out shithead making a call.
You know depression is a liar and it is a thief stealing our joys.
Sometimes, you can't be happy.
Simple as that.
Be kind to yourself like you would a friend.
SW-User
@SW-User 馃
Fallflower46-50, F
@SW-User good advice 馃挏 you鈥檙e both super cool.
SW-User
@Fallflower Hope it helps. 馃
lovingdead31-35, M
You can do it, and when you get time, use your strength (you have it, trust me) to evict that Bastard out of your mind. And fill all vacant spaces with happy thoughts, puppies, wine, etc....and thus it will have no space to move back into.....we believe in you
Fallflower46-50, F
Did someone say wine? 馃槏@lovingdead
sciguy18M
Having had horrible back pain years ago, I can relate. Although it isn't easy, try to distract yourself as much as possible. That sometimes worked for me. Although one should never mix medication with alcohol...
Fallflower46-50, F
I joke about the wine... I don鈥檛 drink much. Glad your back pain went away 馃憤馃 @sciguy18
sciguy18M
@Fallflower I don't drink much either, but it does help every once in a while. I still do have back pain on occasion (especially when sitting for long periods), but it is tolerable.
SW-User
Been there. I can remember a part of me being mildly amused by the toilet paper wad. I hope you feel better soon 馃尰
Fallflower46-50, F
@SW-User it is such a pathetic sight 馃槒
SW-User
馃 ...not certain if that鈥檚 a hug or not...馃尯
Fallflower46-50, F
@SW-User thank you for the hug! Looks like a hug to me
@Fallflower may I pm you?
Fallflower46-50, F
@Itsmrsockmonkey How polite! Sure you can.
@Fallflower thanks

 
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