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I Love When Someone Can Make Me Feel Like I Matter

I love him, but I don’t want to be with him. My friend Erin says “I have love for him”. I do. I have love for someone else too. I have love for someone else other than *Mike. My love is for *Lenard. I think about him everyday. I long to be with him all the time and I know that I could be someday. *knockonwood*. But my fear is actually not knowing *Mike anymore. If I’m spending all my free time with *Lenard naturally my time with *Mike will fade along with the connection that I have with him. He will be connecting with others and I’ll be jealous and that jealousy will turn to disdain. I fear having that disdain toward *Mike, someone who’s had my back for many years. I fear having to feel his energy missing.... but maybe Mike will remain cool. I just know that I want to be with *Lenard. He’s so amazing. Our energy connects in such a magical way. I want to have him forever. I want him to open up more to me; be so vulnerable. I recognize the fear when I daydream of being being gone from *Mike’s life not leaving his life.
SoFine · 46-50, F
Time you build up your own "Worth of Self"
Why?

Your true love is your self love, then this confusion over who you love or who you want to be with.

You validate you
You complete you

People ADD to us, we share, we do stuff together. Yet you so matter to you, that it does not matter who you land up with, as you will choice from a place of stability of choice, than a wims if "does he love me or not" what matters is that you fill you with self love, then your choice is from a place of needs than your current WANTS. ...

Know the difference between your Wants and your Needs....
Platinum · M
It may be best to make a clean break from Mike and show Lenard you really want him...

 
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