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I Am A Real Werewolf

My Latest Developments: Part 2

I've got some weird stuff going on with my wolf and human side (I wanted to call it "M-shifting but that wouldn't have been appropiate). It will probably be different per person just like shifting, but I hear so many people talking about meditating to get to know your wolf side better. For some, it may be a useful method but I honestly feel like I don't need all that, and thus I never feel much motivated for meditation (mostly cause I often feel like I haven't accomplished anything afterwards). Plus I normally have an endless focus but when meditating I tend to lose my focus very quickly and get bored. Especially at home. When I'm in the woods and I try to meditate the pains I have at that moment get worse but go away after a while and furthermore nothing happens. But in daily life I always feel like thinking like a wolf and a human at the same time, though in some occasions I can willingly "turn off" my wolf (when I have to make an exam for example, then only human thoughts and emotions cross my mind), but when I'm out in the woods and I turn off my human thoughts, my wolf instincts take over. Sometimes it even happens unwillingly, but only when it gets triggered by something like picking up a scent, hearing something or seeing a deer run by. When I see or smell game (or even it's tracks) I need to put much effort in my self control to not go hunting or chasing any kind of game I find (though when Iet out my wolf at will I do actually attempt to hunt and track). If I could I would have chased and hunted animals on all fours, but I discovered running on the front of my feet (on my toes kind of) works fine too.

And then the moodswings. Since I'm mostly convinced my physical puberty is long over, I can't blame any moodswings on hormone levels... I get moody without any reason and then cry for a bit without any reason. Same happens with the human and the wolf sides. Most of the time the human and the wolf both "drive" my body simultaneously, but sometimes it feels like my human side disappears or fades away to the background for a few moments. Luckily I tend to get more control over the wolf, which I'm very glad about.

And last but not least: my weird dreams. I've had two dreams about wolves. Last year. I'm not going to describe them very detailed (cause this post is already long enough) but the first dream was about basically meeting myself as a wolf, or so it felt like it. I met a huge wolf in the woods that followed me everywhere, mirrored my emotions and feelings and what made me feel like it reflected and represented me as a wolf. The second dream was about me being accompanied by an even bigger different looking wolf, we hung out like we were bff's. Then I changed POV, my human self disappeared and I was now the wolf, I looked through it's eyes and colntrolled it's actions. Those were the only dreams with even a wolf in them, but I have a strong intuitive feeling that the first dream actually represented my wolf form, and it felt like it was meant to let me meet and truly connect with my wolf side (cause after those dreams, it felt like my wolf side became more prominent as if it had fully awakened. After these dreams, all the stuff mentioned above actually started to happen frequently.

Trolls: again you will waste your time trolling to my post. I'm either gonna remove your comments or just not read them.
letthewolfout · 26-30, M
as a werewolf i would like to tell you quickly that you aren't two different sides ie. the wolf and the human. You are just one being both folded into one personality there is no split or separation of the two within the one
@letthewolfout
I know, but I wrote it down like that to make it more clear
CelestialPanther77 · 22-25, M
Interesting. I too have been experiencing a roller coaster of emotions these past few months.
letthewolfout · 26-30, M
@CelestialPanther77 puberty and stress more then likely cause it ain't werewolfism I promise you guys.
CelestialPanther77 · 22-25, M
Perhaps. Last semester was pretty stressful.
Well at least my stress will be over for the next two months. Graduated high school, puberty is far over and I'll be starting college at the end of August...
This one is too long to read, make it shorter
@YukikoAmagi
Nah. I don't do summarizing

 
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