I Battle Self-hatred, Anxiety, And Depression

I can't really describe how i feel right now. My hands shake my mind is scrambled and i feel like I'm being stared at my a thousand eyes even though I'm alone. My depression has slowy been building over the last couple days and nows it's back like a mental and emotional rash in full force. Every sound i hear makes me angry and that just makes me hate everything and everyone including myself even more. I'm sick of this. I'm trying so hard to keep myself together and stable but I'm failing yet again. I know nobody cares but i have nowhere else to go which is sad in itself. I'm sick of being alive