I Have Something to Say
I continued on; seemingly unaffected now by your departure.
My months of sitting in the eternal dark have now ended.
But emerging from the darkness into the light, I notice something missing.
Something you took away from me. And I only notice it now, because I suddenly always feel tired.
You were my support - all the tutoring I did, teaching, and studying 4 units - I could handle all of it; because of you. You pushed me to be amazing, I did what I could to be amazing.
But unlike you, I needed someone to push me in the back. And spending time in the darkness has killed my momentum. I'm forgetting all my duties now, and what usually would be seamless study is now riddled with shock and struggles.
Your cold eyes, unwavering in your deflection of my gaze; your apologetic words to soften the impact of the past. I stand visibly unaffected; even happier. And I can believe myself too. But in quiet moments like these, and with a moment of reflection, I realise that.. I've taken a turn for the worse, without you.
My months of sitting in the eternal dark have now ended.
But emerging from the darkness into the light, I notice something missing.
Something you took away from me. And I only notice it now, because I suddenly always feel tired.
You were my support - all the tutoring I did, teaching, and studying 4 units - I could handle all of it; because of you. You pushed me to be amazing, I did what I could to be amazing.
But unlike you, I needed someone to push me in the back. And spending time in the darkness has killed my momentum. I'm forgetting all my duties now, and what usually would be seamless study is now riddled with shock and struggles.
Your cold eyes, unwavering in your deflection of my gaze; your apologetic words to soften the impact of the past. I stand visibly unaffected; even happier. And I can believe myself too. But in quiet moments like these, and with a moment of reflection, I realise that.. I've taken a turn for the worse, without you.
