I have had this beautiful view from my hospital room for a week already and who knows how many more days or weeks to come:
But I can not bring myself to enjoy it. I find nothing to ooo and awe at.
I can't bring myself to look beyond this right here. A box with my little Natalia's keepsake memories (left ) and a box with Sebastian's keepsake memories (right)
Now that it's less painful to sit without pain or feeling like I will pass out I sit at the rocker by the window and hold my babies blankets with their tiny little gowns and hats inside.
I don't know how long I'll be broken and how long it will take me to learn to accept my new path, so if this is too difficult for you to read or don't want to keep seeing things about me or my babies or how difficult this journey will be for me please go ahead and delete me or block me or unfriend me. I understand we all need our space. Right now this is my safe place to grieve, some days I'll be here, some days I won't, some days I'll be happy and others way way low.
Im so sorry. I thought things were going better. There are no words anyone can say to make you feel better, but feel free to message me if you need to talk
I can relate! I was in a nursing home after falling down a flight of stairs and breaking my ankle on both sides, I had to have metal pins put in and it was swollen the size of a basket ball almost!? 😢I couldn't cook for myself, so after the hospital I was in a nursing home for a month! It's taken me two years to heal...I STILL have trouble walking! I'm so sorry you are going through this rough time in your life. 🥀 Sending healing prayers✨🙏🏼💫
@Peaches that sounds horribly painful. The biggest trauma I endured while in the hospital was recovering from an emergency c section and going home with empty arms. I couldn’t understand how thousands of women have c sections and just push through the pain, then I realized it’s because they had their little ones to push forward for.
I dont know you ...but as a father and grandfather my heart comes to you with truckloads of love and caring hugs ...your loss is enormous but so is the love that friends everywhere will be beaming to you and all your family at the dreadfull time ...
