I Have Something to Say

Well, this is me. This is me expressing my observations and myself as i should. If i am to look at everything that has happened to me so far, i can only pity myself for some certain things. I have to accept fact the that there's nothing i can do to let those things in my life. Nothing is by force. And i am not a chaser. In particular, i cannot chase a girl especially when i'm trying to remove the part of my life i don't like. That doesn't still even mean that when it finally goes i should chase a girl. That won't happen. As much as i know and accept that i am Alone, that is the fact of my life. I've tried my best in that area of trying to see something that could help. I've come to realize my weakness is Loneliness. I'll have to use my music to fill in the times or parts of my life when i feel lonely. Because something bad happened to me in the past does not mean i was born that way. I am not such a person and will never be. If it means me dieing to do good, i am ready to change my techniques of looking at things to do good,even if it involves me losing my breath. Today i spent about 7 or 8 hours straight trying to finish a music piece i've being composing without living my chair and it's not yet finished. I just ate about an hour ago or while ago. I think i'll have to use this method everyday. Not the number of hours, but music as my method of been ok in my life. I have no one i can communicate with comfortably in my environment, So i hope music helps me. Just my vent and observation.