I Have Something to Say
I'm not strong enough to thrive in this world.
I'm not humble enough to ask for help.
I'm not willing enough to change.
I'm not brave enough to end it on my own.
I reject everyone and everything that makes me happy.
I submit to this mental torture. Spirals of depressive thoughts.
Ask me why, and the answer is because I deserve this. I wrought pain onto one person I cared about. We split apart and burned all bridges between us. Three years of suffering, lord knows how many more, for one mistake.
That's fine. I'm just sorry I can't leave this world sooner. I just don't have the courage to wring the light out of my eyes. And I hate that I know these are the last things she'd want from me, but.. maybe these years of depression isn't enough to repay the debt of pain my foolishness has incurred on her.
I'm not humble enough to ask for help.
I'm not willing enough to change.
I'm not brave enough to end it on my own.
I reject everyone and everything that makes me happy.
I submit to this mental torture. Spirals of depressive thoughts.
Ask me why, and the answer is because I deserve this. I wrought pain onto one person I cared about. We split apart and burned all bridges between us. Three years of suffering, lord knows how many more, for one mistake.
That's fine. I'm just sorry I can't leave this world sooner. I just don't have the courage to wring the light out of my eyes. And I hate that I know these are the last things she'd want from me, but.. maybe these years of depression isn't enough to repay the debt of pain my foolishness has incurred on her.
