I'll Never Get Closure
I had this dream the other day that really tore me up (mentally) with the reminder on some matters, you will never get closure.
I had learned a childhood friend had passed away a couple years ago and had found out last month she took her own life. Although we were only friends as kids (13-15 or so) we had some special times. In this dream I was not sure if I had told her how special the moments we shared meant to me or not. I somewhat remember doing so when I was 18 before leaving off to college, but I cannot be sure if it is a false memory or not. In the dream this thought brought me to tears for several minutes before I woke up.
As sad as it is for me, she left behind her twin girls and an ex-husband and many others who loved her.
Sadly, she isn't the only friend I've lost to suicide. There is rarely anything that can be called closure with a life lost that way.
Also some issues concerning my fist marriage that I'm not going to go into detail will most likely remain unresolved.
This thing called closure is nice, but in some cases is just not going to happen. Maybe putting stress on needing something that may not happen is foolish?
It doesn't matter if things are settled or closed, the sun is still going to rise, and your day is going to be what you make of it.
I had learned a childhood friend had passed away a couple years ago and had found out last month she took her own life. Although we were only friends as kids (13-15 or so) we had some special times. In this dream I was not sure if I had told her how special the moments we shared meant to me or not. I somewhat remember doing so when I was 18 before leaving off to college, but I cannot be sure if it is a false memory or not. In the dream this thought brought me to tears for several minutes before I woke up.
As sad as it is for me, she left behind her twin girls and an ex-husband and many others who loved her.
Sadly, she isn't the only friend I've lost to suicide. There is rarely anything that can be called closure with a life lost that way.
Also some issues concerning my fist marriage that I'm not going to go into detail will most likely remain unresolved.
This thing called closure is nice, but in some cases is just not going to happen. Maybe putting stress on needing something that may not happen is foolish?
It doesn't matter if things are settled or closed, the sun is still going to rise, and your day is going to be what you make of it.
