I Fight Depression and Loneliness Everyday

I had a friend that died in 2010 from something different and by God do i miss that person . We were great friends and i did my best to look after the person when the person was there so if you attempted suicide people would remember the pain and loss of you and this is 6 years on and do you know when i think of that person is when i'm on my own .
I tell you another story about umimportant and unwanted . That person who passed away made feel wanted and i never felt in life that i was important from were i live and that alone was a bonus for me cause i never had to deal with being important and from that important role that people put themselves under i say it's a lot of tension to keep up with it so why bother about not being important , it would save you a lot of hassel on your life .
Then with depression if your suffering with a fog in your mind , try see what's causing it and once see what's causing it the fog in your mind will lift and you'll never again would feel alone again with your depression , cause a person said too me before you could be inside a football staduim with crowds and you could still feel the loneliness person in the world cause the person experienced that depression and i reckon myself it's the main cause of people commiting suicide what i just said there that think there not understood over the depth of soul and the depression that the human mind is in .
And also no one goes through life plain sailing cause i thought that before that everyone was doing fine and i was a basket case , cause did you ever noticed when you feel that way inside yourself and everyone be smiling you'd nearly actually get more depressed . It goes beyone the word despair

I feel the same way all the time but you just gotta find something that makes you feel somewhat better no matter how small it is, and then not let go of it.

My ex girlfriend tried to kill herself when we were together. She was only 16 but she overdosed and i came home from a great day out with my family to a message from her mother and i didnt know if she was alive or dead.
The feeling it puts on the ones you love is too horrible to be felt and nobody should have to go through it
Im not saying you should feel guilty about the effects it has on others as i know you likely feel terrible i just ...idk felt like i could talk about it for the first time since her funeral

@barrett1027 I'm sorry you had to go through that. It must have been very hard for you.

I too have tried to kill myself quite a few times. I failed

I feel so alone in this :( and unimportant and unwanted and like it wouldn't even matter if I killed myself. Like who would even notice

@barrett I hope your right. Right now I'm feeling pretty hopeless

You're not alone in this : )

Thanks same goes for you