I Fight Depression and Loneliness Everyday

I know it is downright pathetic to be attention-seeking through weird and drastic actions....but what else could one do to battle a life of ignominy, apathy and loneliness...where no-one...absolutely no-one recognizes my existence....
Am I to be blamed if I do weird and stupid stuff just to get some reaction....an acknowledgment of my existence....from anyone who would bother?