I Fight Depression and Loneliness Everyday

Red pill or Blue pill, that is the question I've often found myself thinking about despite it being a meme and Matrix thing, months ago in my thoughts I decided if it were a real thing I would take the red pill, metaphorically I have and somewhat regret it, I see the world as it really is, a violent dangerous and often sad place, now this may seem negative but optimism can sometimes be unrealistic, I guess so can pessimism, but if it wasn't for all the modern things I'm willing to bet many would see the world and life in a new light, it isn't all kittens and puppies, bad things are happening to millions every single day and yet I've seen people say how wonderful everything is, that's simply unrealistic, I've seen what really is since I was older than a little kid, I'm done hiding myself, if I feel like posting I will without caring about those who would be rude about it.