I Am a Bad Liar

I have a conscious. And I hate lying to others because obviously I'm not very good at. I feel guilty about doing it .like when I Frist came here. I pretended to be someone I wasn't much older. But others on here knew better. And made me confess to being much younger decades younger as someone pointed out to me I wasn't fooling them.. It hurted me to admit that I was just a kid pretending to be an Adult I even cried. Because I wanted to be considered an Adult. But I wasn't. I just wanted to talk to Adults. And I knew that they wouldn't really want to talk to or be bothered by some 12year old brat. And I was right mostly they don't. They even said so and a lot on here wants this site to be adults only. Like Rainbowkisses.I remember her saying just that. In one of my Post. I promised never to lie again just to gain access to a something I couldn't have. I haven't since. Many tell me to lie to get what I want. But I refuse. I just can't do it anymore. I always end up getting hurt. I don't like to be hurt pyshically or emotionally. I understand though why others who are much younger on here lie about their age. Because they want to be accepted by the Grownups. And they know the only for them to that is to become one. Pretend you are any way. Like I did. I say good luck to you. I don't blame you. But I will not lie again even to save my life. Nor anyone else's life. But I will defend.