I Want To Write A Letter To You

i know its a reasonable thing to do to be friends and i [i]dont[/i] wanna lose you......but im sorry i cant. after my first online relationship was over i horribly realized i could just be friends with him but theres just something about u. i destroyed having my first best friend in my life when i was too young with being in a relationship and now im doing it again becuz im a coward to be friends with u. sweetie if this is becuz u think youre a failure youre not. did u think i cared if u were close to me? i dont care about having someone conveniently close to me i care about someone who gives me a good love. [b][i]youre[/i][/b] not a failure but this bullshit youre pulling is pretty disappointing. baby i am so sorry if i discouraged u to think i didnt want to be with you becuz yes at the beginning i was pathetically mentioning a lot of times how i wish i was with you and maybe that caught up to u but as we grew closer u helped me believe in this relationship. u were my comfort and i was willing to do this forever with u but if u dont believe in me to be a comfort to u i guess i cant make myself be. koala u [i]are[/i] my best friend and just becuz im a coward and im pissed at this bullshit doesnt mean i wont be here for u. i love you. u better be careful becuz if anything happened to you...........