I Heard Love Is Blind, But I See Just Fine
This is just mind-boggling. I... I know how I sound. I sound like a naive teenager...
This is how I feel:
I absolutely, compleetly love this person to their bone.
I want to spend my life with this person.
I want to know them better than anyone else.
I am afraid to lose him. Not that I don't trust him- I do, so much. But I know that with everything there comes a risk.
But I feel that IF something happened, I wouldnt be able to continue with.. well, anyting.
I feel that without this person, I'd fall apart.
I couldn't live my life without him.
Life seems pointless without him.
I feel this so, so, so much and I feel that this is the truth. But I wonder, am I blind?
Most "adults"(I'm technically an adult) would say yes, you are a dumb teenager, blinded by "love", if thats even what it is.
And I hate that people invalidates feelings like this. This is my reality and this awful feeling is very real for me.
I know, because of experiences with other things in life that loss of some sort feels like it will never get better, but it does and I don't think anyone sees that coming. Everyone just experiences pain without an end and then, relief, it's gone. When did it dissapear you ask yourself.
This is a fact, I know this is how we humans work. BUT I don't see that. I see missery without end. I see a life without a point. I see emptiness.
It's weird. I know that i proboably would, at some point be able to move on. But I dont see any possibility for it. I feel like everything would just stop.
I guess I'm blind. But I don't see it.
This is how I feel:
I absolutely, compleetly love this person to their bone.
I want to spend my life with this person.
I want to know them better than anyone else.
I am afraid to lose him. Not that I don't trust him- I do, so much. But I know that with everything there comes a risk.
But I feel that IF something happened, I wouldnt be able to continue with.. well, anyting.
I feel that without this person, I'd fall apart.
I couldn't live my life without him.
Life seems pointless without him.
I feel this so, so, so much and I feel that this is the truth. But I wonder, am I blind?
Most "adults"(I'm technically an adult) would say yes, you are a dumb teenager, blinded by "love", if thats even what it is.
And I hate that people invalidates feelings like this. This is my reality and this awful feeling is very real for me.
I know, because of experiences with other things in life that loss of some sort feels like it will never get better, but it does and I don't think anyone sees that coming. Everyone just experiences pain without an end and then, relief, it's gone. When did it dissapear you ask yourself.
This is a fact, I know this is how we humans work. BUT I don't see that. I see missery without end. I see a life without a point. I see emptiness.
It's weird. I know that i proboably would, at some point be able to move on. But I dont see any possibility for it. I feel like everything would just stop.
I guess I'm blind. But I don't see it.
