Confirmation.

When I finally felt ready I confessed my feelings for you. To be honest I denied them for a while. The funny thing with the truth is it’s like trying to push a ball underwater. Eventually, regardless of your strength. It’s going to pop up eventually. As so my feelings for you just came back and screamed at me to tell you.
I had taken some shrooms that day and got really honest with myself. About what I wanted. What I needed. Where I wanted to be in life. And with who. You were texting me at the time. I was starting to pace back and forth a bit. And decided to check the mail.
That’s when I got your birthday gift to me. See the thing about this gift wasn’t that it was useful or thoughtful. But that it was something you don’t just buy for a friend. The quality was good. The packaging was nice. The weight of the knife was strong. Yet light. It was something you get for someone you were interested in.
I felt a wave of emotions because that confirmed that the feelings I have for you; you had the same. The wave took me over and I started crying. Because you got that gift before I even told you I liked you. And it was beyond thoughtful and nice. There was consideration behind it. To get that before I told you, on the day I was emotionally vulnerable, but ready to meditate my thoughts and desires.

Boy I was ready to tell you how I felt.

I’m glad I did.