I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

I feel alone most of the time.
I never feel good enough.
I always feel unlovable.
I always feel like a burden.
I always feel like I'm difficult.
I always compare myself to others.
I'm always worried people who "love" me are going to leave me.
I've never felt genuinely happy.
My partner says I always make her feel like nothing's good enough for me.
I'm never happy.
Nothing is ever enough.
I feel misunderstood.
I feel confused.
I feel guilty.
I feel sad.
I feel hurt.
I feel angry.
I'm so insecure it's ruining my life.

When I push you away, I don't mean it.
When I say I don't care, it's because I do.
When I say I don't love you, it's because I love you so much it scares me. When I say I don't need you. I really need you to wrap your arms around me as tight as you can and never let go. I need you to love me and reassure me everything's okay.

I'm sorry I'm this way. I'm sorry I'm sick. I'm sorry I make you feel not good enough when really it's me who never feels or has ever felt good enough.