I'm Wondering How Other People See Me

Too much for my own good... Yup, I wonder what people think about me all the time. Almost, every time I post a story on here, I often wonder what kind of response I'll get from it. Every time I have to meet new people, or even if I'm around friends and family, I'm often wondering if I'm giving off bad vibes or good vibes. And why? Well, I do enjoy when people tell me how the see me. (What can I say, I like attention) Of course negative attention, and being judged kind of sucks, I can't say that I'm a fan of that. (Who is?). But the information you get from it, can sometimes be useful, as I'm still trying to fully figure myself out, and sometimes I just like to know what others see in me, sometimes they see things in me that I've never really noticed before, and I potentially learn something new about myself. Like when someone on here told me that they thought I was good writer. I never thought of myself as a good writer, and was definitely surprised to see that.

However I think I wonder, or even worry too much about what others think about me. And sometimes it kills my self esteem, and sometimes it turns me into someone I'm not, which isn't what I want to do. I do try to stick by the phrase: "I'd rather be hated for who I am, then loved for who I'm not". But what can I say, ultimately, I want to be accepted, hopefully for who I am.