I Have Low Self Esteem

I hate how I look, I hate who I am and I hate what I do. I can't believe it when anyone compliments me because I know it's not true. And it all gets worse when I see pictures of those beautiful other girls on instagram or similar places, I think they're all so much more beautiful than me. And it doesn't help that my family all put me down because I could've done better in school, I should have done this or that or whatever. I have no chance of ever believing in myself.

And no I'm not fishing for compliments I dont want sympathy or pity I just wanted to get this off my chest.