I Long For Someone to Really Know Me

But the problem is I'm extremely guarded and I'd be amazed if I lowered it. I've had too many negative experiences with people and it's left me jaded and cynical, and people only see that or worse, they think I've got something to hide. But in reality, I'm just afraid to get hurt again, it seems easier pushing people away than to risk being hurt yet again.

I'd like to think I'd add value to people's lives, given half a chance, but I'm doubtful it'll happen, I don't think I can change and I don't think people would have too much patience with me.