I Feel Thankful
My birthday was last Thursday, and so last night I went to my local bar for karaoke night with some friends. When I first got there, my friends hadn't arrived yet and I only recognized a few regulars (I hadn't gone in maybe 5 months) which made me slightly nervous. But then everyone started showing up -- even people I know whom are almost never there -- and it turned into the most fun ever.
One big highlight of the night though was when I went up to sing. I was definitely drunk, but the whole floor (it's a pretty big building) was full of happy people, and I could feel that I was adding to all the positive energy via hyping everyone up even more. I felt one with everyone and completely at home. This isn't something I feel often. So for that, I am eternally grateful. It's moments like that that remind me how, even when I go into my bouts of depression where I wonder what kind of purpose I could possibly have, I am capable of helping the world be a merrier place sometimes just by being a positive example which is all I care about. So I have to stay alive and I have to keep trying, if only so that I can make that happen every now and then. These moments are what give my entire life meaning.
One big highlight of the night though was when I went up to sing. I was definitely drunk, but the whole floor (it's a pretty big building) was full of happy people, and I could feel that I was adding to all the positive energy via hyping everyone up even more. I felt one with everyone and completely at home. This isn't something I feel often. So for that, I am eternally grateful. It's moments like that that remind me how, even when I go into my bouts of depression where I wonder what kind of purpose I could possibly have, I am capable of helping the world be a merrier place sometimes just by being a positive example which is all I care about. So I have to stay alive and I have to keep trying, if only so that I can make that happen every now and then. These moments are what give my entire life meaning.
