How to cope...?
So, this might be long (as usual), and for that, I apologize,
I've had a crappy week, to put it lightly. It started off with my credit card being stolen. It wasn't a HUGE deal, but it was an inconvenience that upset me quite a lot. Next, I have had a TON of issues with FAFSA and found out that I may not be able to enroll in the classes I need to take next semester, which is putting a ton of stress on me. Nonetheless, I've decided to just let whatever is going to happen, happen and to just know that whatever happens is for the best. I started doing better until my aunt called the other night. To make a long story short, my aunt has stage four metastatic breast cancer. She was diagnosed almost nine years ago, and she was supposed to live five years at most. She is a smoker, and she also has Graves disease. (I think it has something to do with her thyroid..?) She's lived much longer than we have all expected, but my family has been waiting for the other shoe to drop. Due to her being on the medications for this long, we have all been expecting something to happen sooner or later. My Aunt revealed on the phone that she has congestive heart disease, and we don't know how much longer she has. She went in for testing yesterday, and we haven't heard back from her yet. While I know heart disease isn't necessarily a death sentence in certain cases, it's getting harder for me to tell myself that she's going to be here much longer with all of the health issues she has. (She said her oncologist wanted her tested immediately and appeared very concerned). Yesterday, my mom also told me that my relatives won't be coming for Thanksgiving, which was the straw that broke the camel's back for me. I started sobbing. I'm not ready to deal with the change of losing relatives and losing the tradition of having my family come to spend the holidays with us at my grandparent's house. Also, I am currently in a play, which I am extremely grateful to be a part of, but it is exhausting. I'm trying to deal with everything that has happened this week, and it's not easy when you have commitments every night. (Especially when you have a cold). I know that this all probably just sounds like complaining, and for that I am sorry. I just really needed to get my thoughts out somewhere, and I'm sorry if this all just sounds like someone who can't handle things.
But if anyone could offer advice, I'd greatly appreciate it.
I've had a crappy week, to put it lightly. It started off with my credit card being stolen. It wasn't a HUGE deal, but it was an inconvenience that upset me quite a lot. Next, I have had a TON of issues with FAFSA and found out that I may not be able to enroll in the classes I need to take next semester, which is putting a ton of stress on me. Nonetheless, I've decided to just let whatever is going to happen, happen and to just know that whatever happens is for the best. I started doing better until my aunt called the other night. To make a long story short, my aunt has stage four metastatic breast cancer. She was diagnosed almost nine years ago, and she was supposed to live five years at most. She is a smoker, and she also has Graves disease. (I think it has something to do with her thyroid..?) She's lived much longer than we have all expected, but my family has been waiting for the other shoe to drop. Due to her being on the medications for this long, we have all been expecting something to happen sooner or later. My Aunt revealed on the phone that she has congestive heart disease, and we don't know how much longer she has. She went in for testing yesterday, and we haven't heard back from her yet. While I know heart disease isn't necessarily a death sentence in certain cases, it's getting harder for me to tell myself that she's going to be here much longer with all of the health issues she has. (She said her oncologist wanted her tested immediately and appeared very concerned). Yesterday, my mom also told me that my relatives won't be coming for Thanksgiving, which was the straw that broke the camel's back for me. I started sobbing. I'm not ready to deal with the change of losing relatives and losing the tradition of having my family come to spend the holidays with us at my grandparent's house. Also, I am currently in a play, which I am extremely grateful to be a part of, but it is exhausting. I'm trying to deal with everything that has happened this week, and it's not easy when you have commitments every night. (Especially when you have a cold). I know that this all probably just sounds like complaining, and for that I am sorry. I just really needed to get my thoughts out somewhere, and I'm sorry if this all just sounds like someone who can't handle things.
But if anyone could offer advice, I'd greatly appreciate it.
