My Goal in Life [I Have a Blog]

I know what I need to finally be happy, but I don't know when it'll happen, if it even does. I want to escape. I want to disappear with only a few people knowing where I went. I want to disconnect from this world; no internet, no electricity, no people. I want to live like that until I drop dead. Home is not where I am. Home is something you feel in your heart. I've been living my entire life for others. I do nothing for myself. It's never bothered me, but it's catching up. I'm getting older. I know I'll never have my own biological children. I'm probably never going to remarry. At this rate, I'll never be happy. This is something I think a lot about. My wife's memorial in deep in the woods. I don't want to visit her. I want to stay there, live off the land, be close to her. I'm sitting in my house, feeling homesick.