I Like to Write About How I Feel

It is starting to sink in. This week will be extremely difficult. Not only do I have to continue to monitor my high risk pregnancy and make sure I notice every single twinge that feels off and rush to the ER at the first sign of trouble. I also have a doctors appointment at the hospital on the 7th. Two years ago I went to the hospital on the 7th... and then Melody died on the 8th. If this baby makes it through this date, there is still many weeks to go until she is safe...

The thing is, we are never really safe... children die all the time. And I really, really, really don't want this baby to die. As much as I think I would be a horrible mother, I really want to try my best to let this baby have all that Melody could not