I Like to Write About How I Feel

My "father" is mentally ill. If I were to describe him... the words that come to mind are paranoid, drunk, and on a continuous loop of hatred. There are days were he acts semi normal. Though in my entire life I have never seen how he is when he is completely sober and clear headed. Its unfortunate. But it could be worse he could be full blown schizo or have mpd. My sibling often compares him to a video game character.

Occasionally he'll drink to much and try to drive off in his car. Those are shitty days. The last time this happened I got elbowed in the face. Didn't hurt though. Guess hes psychically weak. Though i suppose thats good since it'll be easier to pry the keys away from em. I wonder if im considered pitfull because I have to deal with this. Guess it builds character.

I wonder what causes a person to act like that. Actually I already know why hes paranoid but i mean before hes become so fixated on the hate. Though at this point I could care less. It wouldnt change much. At the end of the day hes still whatever the hell he is.