I Am Single

I want to be in relationship but than I don't. I am confused and scared and don't know what I want. I am also afraid to be in a relationship because I am unsure about myself and who I am and what I want. I am so in indecisive and back and forth with things, many things. I am trying to figure out myself and make myself better before I can be in a relationship. I know that I do not need to be perfect in order to be in a relationship, but I want to be able to give my all to the person I am. I dislike that I am like this at my age. I need to get better emotionally and know what I want. I hope that sooner than later I will get better in order to be the best possible person that I can be. I know I can be a good girlfriend and wife someday I just need to better myself even if I remain single for sometime more. Its okay Id rather better myself than be selfish and give my person the best version of myself.