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I Have Dreamed Many Dreams(both)

Last nights dream took me by surprise.
For some reason I went looking for my Mother whom I have not seen or spoken to in 49 years.
If she was still alive she would be about 92.
There were several people with me, though I do not know who they were. Also two dogs accompanied me. A Pug and not sure about the other one.
I had heard that she lived on Devine Rd in a suburb of Hobart, Tasmania.
So I ended up in a hotel in that suburb and was asking everyone there where Devine Rd was. No one knew where Devine Rd was.
The only thing to do was to go door knocking, asking people where the Rd was. We all traipsed out of the Hotel and began knocking and asking. For hours this went on and it was now dark. Finally one Lady told me where it was and we set out.
When finally we reached the house it was about 10 pm, I knocked on the door, a lady answered but I could not see her face because she never turned a light on, afraid of strangers?
So I asked her if she was Margaret, and used her married name when she was my Mother but I instantly corrected myself and used her new married name.
She said yes and I told her who I was. She tentatively said, "Well come in but only you, not all those other people and definitely not those mutt Pugs.
I still had not seen her face, she stepped aside to let me in. I walked past her into a totally dark house, she shut the door and I woke up.
SW-User
Whatever happened that you stopped talking to her? I think there's a lot of unresolved feelings and spoken words :/
Peaches · F
@Gusman Yes, that was what I meant.
Gusman · 61-69, M
@Peaches 💔 ❤️ Thanks for the gift
Peaches · F
@Gusman You're welcome. 🥰
Wiseacre · F
Very sad story, Gus..thnx for sharing!
Poppies · 61-69, F
Even though you have desire to seek her out, it's natural that at some level you might wonder, "What was she thinking?" and "What is she thinking now?"
Gusman · 61-69, M
@Poppies Sure. I can understand that. I can even empathise up to a point.
With a husband that was drunk every night that I can remember, my Mother went looking for love elsewhere.
Still does not mean that it was okay to beat her children with a hardwood broom handle cut down to 3 feet. That is plain cruelty
Poppies · 61-69, F
@Gusman No, there is absolutely no excuse for her to behave that way.
Zonuss · 41-45, M
You're an empath.
Gusman · 61-69, M
@Zonuss Well. I seem to be very perceptive. Picking up vibes and all that. How did you get that from what I wrote?
Zonuss · 41-45, M
@Gusman 🙂
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Gusman · 61-69, M
@sspec Most of my early childhood, before 12? is non existent. Blocked by me and 25 years of alcoholism.
Had a huge detrimental effect on me.
Over it for the most part now.
Well, at least I have coping strategies that I employ when the darkness threatens to engulf me.
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