I feel like a stone cold savage to have said the things I did there but I mean

Honestly there really just isn't anything it if for me anymore?

Lyssa was honestly the best thing that ever came my way and I will never fuck her over... ever..

and I'm sure you've heard these promises before it's just...

I'm not begging, I don't need to...

nobodies ever been as kind to me as she has...

and it's just ....it's hard to speak honestly aobut things sometimes because the truth is powerful...

I have wanted someone like her since I was a little kid.

Even the guy behind brand new let me down with all the hitting on 17 year old girls he did and then just apologized like it would ever be enough to mend the damage.

it's hard to listen to the same music again without seeing in it in a much different light that's far more depressing but I am what they promised and never managed to deliver.

I would kill for her, Beg borrow and steal... I would crawl on my hands and knees in the dirt ....

I really would...

I'm not going anywhere.... believe me...

my days of breaking hearts are over...

and IF i'm honest with you I used to... I mean I got a shinier of ani defranco's untouchable face thrown in my direction when I traded my Ex for my first love.

I've hurt them, for real...

but honestly the new era has come we're in the me too era and to some extent I have been calling for higher expectations placed on us...

so of course I'm grateful to even be with someone, much less someone so breathtakingly amazing.